I have been on a bit of a hiatus, but as always I have returned. In the past few weeks I have been doing a lot of living and reflection on my life and the direction I would like the rest of 2017 to go.
I shut down my webstore.
I got out of a long term relationship.
I moved into the city, got an internship, started selling my hand made clothes to a boutique.
I hit 5,000 followers on Run and Follow’s insta…and then I stopped posting.
Those are just few of the things in the past few months among hundreds of smaller changes. I thought moving to the city, living on campus at my dream school would leave me feeling inspired, and I do, feel inspired that is, but I am also left with this feeling I’ve bene having a hard time identifying. Perhaps I am overwhelmed but I think a more accurate term would be that I am oversaturated. The environment of my school is highly competitive and with so many people trying to reach similar goals to me, I felt uninspired to write, design, produce, edit, or just simply CREATE because I was afraid of how unoriginal I would sound. Originality is the asset I crave and value above everything else. I suppose I am going through growing pains, realizing things that were original in my medium sized suburban home town aren’t original and in fact are being done 100 times over.
Over the past weeks I have been doing a lot of reflecting, and why my life here is actually rather amazing, and by any standard is more then good, its not everything I want it to be. I want to travel, I want to blog and create dynamic content, I want to write and run and I want to run a highly successful business. I want to be involved with charities and I want to do everything while going to school full time. Continuing to live my life would only allow me to reach some of my goals so after some evaluation I have finally gathered the gumption to make some lifestyle changes in order to achieve my true intentions.
I crave authenticity in life, and perhaps you look at me and laugh seeing as I blog for a living, the very act of blogging is presenting a persona to the internet, and I go to school for fashion, the most superficial career known to mankind, however I have always felt fashion and blogging were simply an extension of my own self expression. That being said, I realize being at school made me lose my sense of self very momentarily. Looking inwards, I have always been my own compass and North Star and I am okay in admitting I need time to reinvent and plan. I have always jumped headfirst into tasks letting my passion lead. In the next few months I plan to put reigns on my passion and take a step back to plan my world take over.
RAF, the webstore will relaunch in February. After extensive planning, I realized I needed time to develop a few cohesive collections and brand image in order for my company to withstand the test of time. I will be keeping the blog updated as well as my social media about the changes undergoing.
As far as Run and Follow, my blog, my origin, my main platform, I need to turn this site back into my creative sanctuary. I plan to utilize my blog as a creative dump, a place to push boundaries instead of reporting on current trends. In the future I’m not sure where this blog will take me, but for now I need to focus on staying inspired and fresh, and my business and less on developing my personal style.
Thank you, thank you, thank you, to everyone who bears with me through this growth.
RUN AND FOLLOW CONTINUES…